It’s been almost a week since my last Blogmas post. I realized today that, although I haven’t written a post this week, they were still being published each day. You can thank November Kendra for trying to do everything ahead of time. If you clicked on a post that opened to a blank page I am so sorry. The truth is, I fell behind and haven’t been feeling very much in the holiday spirit lately. Stress, anxiety, and depression really dampen the magic of the season. I haven’t felt this low in a long time. I had to take some stuff off of my plate, and since Blogmas is something I do for fun, for myself, it was one of the things that I had to give up first. Seems silly to give up something that brings you joy, but that’s how things go. The laundry and the dishes have to be done and our schedules this week were jam packed with programs and whatnot. It’s really been one hectic week.
I’m embarrassed and disappointed in myself for not showing up here and for failing the challenge this year. I have been so excited to get back into a regular writing routine and to participate in Blogmas since August. Even though it’s been quite a rough few months for me, I thought I had planned ahead enough to stay on track. Turns out I was wrong and now I have to face the music. I thought as a stay-at-home mom I’d have my life put together better and not find it so hard to sit down and enjoy a hobby or two. Guess this just hasn’t been a season of success for me. Hopefully next year will be better! If this hasn’t been your season either, know my heart goes out to you. You’re not alone in feeling low this Christmas. I pray that each day gets easier and better for you.
Blogmas will be pretty bland from here on out. I’ll try to keep posting, but I can’t make any promises. And the challenges I had planned for 2025 may have to be postponed, too. This winter break I’m going to have to go one day at a time. I wish life came with a real “reset” button, but each new day is a chance to try again, right?
Thanks for letting me vent to you, Reader! Happy Blogmas!
